"If you practice yoga, you practice Hinduism; and the more you do it, the more you open yourself up to the spiritual side of it
....the asanas and the pranayama really intend to produce the awakening of what is known as "kundalini power", which is taught as being a snake coiled around the base of the spine.
When this serpent is awakened, it will then move up through the body, through the "chakras" (the so-called life-force centres) and once it reaches the "crown chakra" (or the top of the head) (interesting that satan came into the garden of Eden as a snake).
Do you want to follow Shiva (who taught the “science” of Hatha Yoga) who is also named the Destroyer - or Christ, who came to heal and save
The guy came and put in the new modem and it 'seems'...so far, so good, to have fixed the problem....yeah!
I actually did smile at Jesus and then hubby first thing this morning....I did NOT smile at our friend Doug.....because well it's complicated, but I did not want him to think I was flirting or some weird thing. However, I did smile at one of the tenants father and he smiled back. I am kind of unused to doing that so it felt a bit odd or a little phoney but he seemed to think I was just being friendly and started talking about the weather LOL
I will make sure to smile at Jesus first thing tomorrow...unless I've gone on to glory....then I might never stop smiling....or if the tsunami came or something like that I might forget to....but barring those sort of things.....
But I just meant that a lot of people claim Martin Luther hated Jews and therefore was bad. I know he said some things that might have seemed that way and other things that were down right hard, and yet I read he wished for them to be saved....which is different from hating them purely on the basis of blood.
I really don't know what to think about that but it seems (even if it were true, it would have been a terrible sin) but some throw the baby out with his dirty bath water....all of the reformation and even most of his biblical commentaries ( minus those on the Jewish people....if he really did hate them). That was what I was referring to.
One thing you said, that I am really going to reflect on about looks that impacted me strongly was this:
"When you look in the mirror, what you are seeing is like an illusion, not the Truth."
Especially because as you said, god not living in time as we are, sees us as already in our new redeemed body.
I sooooooo know what you mean that you were glad the site saved what you had written......because our internet provider's modem is dying, it must sometimes cause a glitch so this site does not save what I have written. But since I am so used to it saving, I forget to copy before posting ( cuz like I said, it does not always...especially if we are no longer us when I hit post.....the little graphic shows all the bars as full...even when we are in fact disconnected, so that is no help either!
Hopefully the guy will be here in an hour or two and it won't take hi for ever to install a new modem....arrrggghhh! Another reason I most likely won't be posting today....plus, I have to go clean the apt now......
I really was helped by what you said about grandchildren too....even tho mine live next door we don't always get to do or say nearly what we might like.
However, we almost got to take Devon to church...the first time Hossanah was ok with it ( as long as he did not go to children's sunday school but stayed the whole time with us....)only it did not happen but maybe next Sunday.....
That was interesting about Luther.....I never thought of him as bad as some do.....
If you woke up tomorrow and the problem was gone, what would be the first thing you'd notice?
I know this sounds sort of obvious, but the first thing I would notice was I was not depressed, but rather happy and looking forward to the day.
What would others first notice?
Without depression, I am thinking they might notice a smile of joy.
How would it affect your day?
Again without starting the day of depressed, down, a little scared, with self-pity, I think my day would be filled with eagerness to see what the Lord had for me, but I am not saying a happy sort of 'pollyanna outlook, would mean there would never be sorrows or pain, but I would know that Jesus would be with me, even in a 'bad' day, and would work it out for my good ( either in this life or the next) so I could have hope instead of depression.
How would it affect your personality?
I think it would affect my health in a good way ( not a cure, but perhaps depression takes a lot out of a body, ) and the lack of depression, might give me some more energy.
How would it affect how you view yourself?
This is a bit trickier.....because among other self-pity things I think about myself, you know how I struggle with vanity and don't take wrinkles, loose skin, mottled skin, grey hair, etc. well....which affect how I view myself and how other view me.....and adds to depression.
But I think, I might not see myself as a 'victim' ( in many ways...aging just one thing) and trust that God loves me no matter how I 'look' and I might see myself as having some use ( that God may still find use for me here).
What can we do to make that happen?
I tired smiling first thing this morning.
I would like to hear more about how to have more control of dreams.....because i have so little control of them....... and to wake up from strange, weird, scary dream....they sometimes sort of carry over for a short while into a waking reality.
I have had the most dreams ever.... that may have scripture in them etc. , but they are not what I would wish ( not as many or as often).
How is God working in all of this?
He provided you as a sister in the Lord, to show me some hope, in scriptures, and ideas.[/font][/b]
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Cindy: we do get snow most years maybe 3 days out of the winter and maybe up to 1 inch ( tho that's rare) and only once did it stay on the ground for 3 days....but only once. Plus we have trees in Or. to beat the drum, so we do get a fall, but I agree nothing beats a New England fall! I can say that as I was born and grew up in Conn. so I have seen both the East and left coast :-)
Ke;: Thank you soooooooo much for the sweet compliment. Oh but, I never heard if your daughter's friend liked her painting of her dog?
Well don't you guys hurt yourself laughing..... but we just got a 'HEAT' advisory for Oregon coast...
Yes..... it will be in the 80's to low 90's, for Sat.
It went on to say stay indoors, drink lots of fluids, etc etc. ( the advisory was just posted on weather underground).
I am thinking part of the reason we are having this advisory is the temp combines with high humidity.
But coast folks are not used to that heat, so the rapid increase is significant for us.
We will be back in the 70's Sunday and upper 60's on Monday.
But I always hated to 'dry' heat.....it always felt like the air was trying to grab every bit of moisture from my body.
I think you were right that God maybe did not want me to work from the notes, because it's 4:38 and I have just been able to get on the net ( so I could not go back and redo the notes, which I have not found....LOL)....so yeah!
I read thru the new joy scriptures ( I don't think I know what scripture 'proofing' is?)
But I will go back and read them more carefully and slowly but while the net is working ( supposedly next Tue they will come and put in a new modem for our complex....we shall see....)
But with the first read thru, a few things jump out and spoke to me.....
That if I remain in His love, so that HIS joy may be in me, and will be complete
Another thing was I can have joy in the fact that my name is written in Heaven ( I never thought of that before)
Also, I can have joy in His presence.....it's weird, more and more, I feel like Jesus is with me really really....when I go for a walk, or listen to praise, worship and/or hymns ( I will look up often and talk to Him about the music, the scenery, the animals, and birds)
I realize that some might think me schizophrenic ....like a non believing psych doctor...they would think either I am hallucinating or talking to some imaginary 'friend'.....
But the truth is, Jesus IS always there....and it is they who are confused.
Oh and the last one was I can have joy in hope ( hope of things not seen right now with physical eyes of mine, but are nevertheless real).
It's funny, some of them might think me 'specially gifted"....if instead of talking to Jesus, I said I was talking to aliens, who were in a 5th dimension....now that many would believe was 'real'
well, 'aliens' may in fact be real...only they are not aliens in the way science would like, but fallen angels/demons.
But the more and more I am able to talk with and to Jesus, the more 'joy' I find I am having.
I am going to post this now, quick before the net crashes again.....just for our little complex.
I read all the verses on joy yesterday, which was interesting to be sure.
I can't believe it....I cannot find my notes on your posts on joy.....I have looked and looked
I do sort of remember one being about how we were created to praise God, which results in joy, doing what I was created to do.
I don't think this was in your notes, but I was thinking tho joy is a choice, when we sin, we must cancel out joy, until we repent and get into fellowship with Jesus again.
I just can't think of where the notes would have gone....I sit in the same place and so the notes should be within a foot somewhere on the table by my chair.
Perhaps the stuck to a paper plate or maybe if I threw out a newspaper and they got stuck to either one, and thus were throw out, but it would be a first!! :-(
Should I go back and re-read the notes, and take notes again and try one more time?
This is like a comedy of errors only.....not a very funny comedy arrgghh.
We also had a few interruptions....at 8:30 our grandson came over informing us we had to watch him because Vanessa was going with a friend to clean an apt.
We had to rearrange our schedule because I am cleaning today, and have to go to the hospital for blood test etc. tomorrow, so I also had to wash our clothes ( to have something clean to wear) and I should take a shower and wash my hair, Leonard had to go pick up Hossanah and so on and on.
And I am still tired....but I have been having some victory over depression. Really hymns, praise and worship music has indeed helped a whole lot as well as all the scriptures ( of course) and your notes....which I am thinking I prob. should read a third time.....it most likely would not hurt.
Sort of like how you suggested reading scripture....once all at once, then more verse by verse, then all at once again.
Anyway, I do need my notes to write ( I know I had them last night, at one point!)
Reading your temps reminded me of when we lived in Calif...hot.
But today our high should be 60....but a heat wave is coming ( and all the locals will be complaining, tooooo hot cuz Sat. is supposed to get to 79!!!!
If it gets to 80 everybody will go to ER LOL
But seriously, when a body gets acclimated to coolish weather, 79 does seem pretty near tooooo toasty.....but as long as it doesn't go much higher, we will survive....
Tho I doubt you all suffering with 100's are going to be too sympathetic.
We actually have hit the 90's here some years for several days in the summer......but its rare.
I do not relish even thinking about it and feel truly badly for you all.
I get heat headaches, can't get comfortable ( and nobody here has an air conditioner).
But I could go wading in the ocean and it almost always cools way down at night, in the summer when the marine layer comes in.....tho once in a great while it might not....but that too is a rarity. And there is almost always a breeze off the ocean.
One of the nice things about living at the ocean is we don't get mosquitoes.....I think the ocean air and breeze keeps them inland?
And it seems like ticks don't like ocean air either tho in the woods I imagine there are some. We have a lot of elk and deer....they meander in the road in herds, from time to time.
I am so glad you got 100 % financial aid Cindy. That's what we have also. The only thing it does NOT pay for is the radiologist report because he or she is not a doctor of the Providence system.
Thank you Cindy! When I wrote I 'thought' it was really more like the Holy spirit tied the 'thought' of both Love and Joy being choices.... I had sort of given up in a way. I had read the notes ( but I only wrote Joy is a choice as my first note)..... Anyway, rather than write, I decided to take a nap LOL ( as I was a bit discouraged in myself, and fearful, I still wasn't understanding....so a nap is always good LOL)
But it was just seconds before I fell asleep, the thought that you had also said, love is a choice came.....I was only thinking, about Joy being a choice...not about love, the fruits of the spirit or that I had been waiting to fall into joy ( kind of like being hit by lightening, and it just was not happening that way).
I think you mean I can go on with what else I got out of reading the notes on joy? So today, I will write them all....not that they are super extensive.....but they are more than what I wrote yesterday.....
I was suppose to do it all in one day, but I didn't think it would be fair to you to write a lot if it wasn't really what you were asking and you would have to wade thru it all.
I am so glad the storms missed you again.
It's kind of funny, I almost always pray that the west coast fault line out in the ocean, does not cause the earthquake they are always warning about.....with it's massively deadly tsunami.
I am not sure I read all of the notes you meant or if I read too many or if I have yet the right idea......
So I will mention the very first thing that really stood out to me in the notes about JOY. You wrote joy is a choice!
I think all this time, I expect to 'fall into it'. I wrote fall into because I remember you have said in the past that we don't "fall in love"....we may fall in lust, but love is also a choice!
And then I realized that love and joy were the first two spiritual fruits and both were a choice. It I love Jesus, I will have joy itself, and no matter what my circumstances, peace ( not that things around me may always be peaceful....it could even be a war.....but having the love of Jesus, and loving him and choosing joy and love....I will have peace because I can trust that no matter what happens to me, it will be for my best ( it may hurt but make me strong, or it may bring me into the presence of God if I die).
I took other notes, but I don't want to write more unless I know this is what you meant.
I did pray and ask the Lord about joy and the above is the first I thought I heard from the Lord about it.
I will mention one other somewhat odd thing....a Christian novel I am reading had this sentence in it.....and it too struck me, because I could relate to it in a way, and it was about joy of all things.
"She supposed in some way she convinced herself that she didn't deserve joy....."
I misunderstood again! I was thinking I was to re-read all the psalms you mentioned....instead of just ONE like you said
"Open your bible to 'one' of these Psalms (it doesn't matter which one, just whichever one you want to) Psalm 113, 114, 115, 116, 117, 118, Psalm 145, 146, 147, 148, 149, or 150. (I removed the Great Hallel as it's got so many in it.)"
I think seeing the list, I thought I was to do all of them, and you just only gave me an example of one, but seeing the list meant I was to re-read all ....even tho you wrote: ( "(it doesn't matter which one, just whichever one you want to))
and then I misunderstood yet again because when you wrote let's say you start with ( I assumed that meant I should do more than one because I would 'start' with and then go on to all the others
"Let's say you chose to start with Psalm 145"
and I compounded it because when I saw:
"You would share with me that vs 5 stood out to you.... You'd explain that verse 9 also spoke to you about His compassion for you and His love for you"
So that's what I 'thought' I was supposed to be doing and I even 'thought' that was what I was doing, with ALL of the psalms ( you suggested only one but like I explained I misunderstood and thought I was too do all of them based on your saying: You might START with 145 ( and I thought that meant, to mean I would go on to all the others, because I would be just starting with 145...and since that was just an example, and you started the list at 113....and you only picked 145 as an 'example' only....but really I was to actually start at 113 LOL Oh vey!!!
I just forgot about the pick just one.....after I read: START with
So I started re-reading at 113 and wrote what stood out to me about joy and how the Lord would have me look at it.
But then to add to it, I did not understand that you meant go over just the last few notes on joy..... but rather THE notes.....I thought that meant, ALL the notes.
I must not be tracking very well lately and/or I am not good at following directions because I don't read carefully enough.....
I missed or rather dismissed the word: ONE as in pick ONE....
I just saw a list, and assumed' ( even if I read the word ONE) that I was to re-read the whole list.....
like even if I read the word ONE first, the list then took precedence and negated the word ONE.
Just like I overlooked: "re-read the last couple or few notes on joy" to mean, re-read them all!
Like I said, I've been a bit sleepy and I guess this is the proof arrrggghhh Either that or my brain is atrophying....sigh.
So now I am afraid to even try again cuz I am thinking at the rate I am going, I will not get it right...yet again
Anyway, I am hoping I understand to just re-read the notes on joy on this page
even tho you wrote this about one psalm.... I think maybe it might apply to the notes as well????
"Reflect on His joy and how it's related to praise, and thankfulness and even contentment. Consider how joy is related to love and peace which God also gives us and which are all things that grow as we grow in our faith. As you talk to Him about all of this and reflect on it,"
what God wants me to learn about it and Then let me know what you've discovered that you can apply to your life that will bring God's joy to you?
I have a feeling that is not quite right either....I am not sure why I am not getting it?
But since I don't want to have a day of not posting, because it helps me at the very least be in the Word, and posting is a way for me to stay accountable ( tho perhaps I would stay accountable to the Lord mostly because I want to spend time with Him......... even tho or IF I never posted again....like because the internet went poof).
Anyway, I will go over the notes on joy....on this page....pray about it, and talk to Lord, and see how they can be applied to my life....but I may keep it short ( unless the Lord speaks a book to me ) cuz I am not sure I am yet getting it.....and you won't have to go thru an endless bunch of blather......like right now.
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I am putting this note in because it is true and holds true even to this day....I still hold in a lot of stuff. It's funny, at one time I was diagnosed among other things as catatonic because I refused to be vulnerable ( yes, you were right it was a temper tantrum) I just shut down all together, because then no one could hurt me....but that didn't last tooo long but on a smaller scale I still will often freeze when scared,(perhaps also a "paralysis of self-pity")..... which is why I need to find more joy in the Lord who is strong and who loves me This is the first note that caught my eye today....not exactly about joy, but perhaps a lack of it, has to do with a temper tantrum even now.
"In a way it was probably your way of throwing a tantrum. You simply held everything inside yourself, which is a very, very unhealthy way to deal with emotions. But since you didn't get the love you needed when you showed them, you just kept them inside. That's something you most likely have to deal with to this day."
And you mentioned not to deny God our true feelings.
"David was, or how sick or tired, he always told the Lord and then before he was done, he'd wind up praising God, which is exactly what we need to learn to do every day. "
But we can also dishonor God if we have inappropriate feelings and out of control actions and call it a moving of the Holy Spirit.
A joy stealer is self-pity and at "The heart of self-pity is envy....
The mind becomes engrossed in a morbid, temporal perspective."
"Instead of leaving the hurt in the past they continue to hurt us as we relive the event.....
what he (I) needed was a new way of understanding it.....The new perspective was that of being able to look at the situation as God did.
If you want to understand what's going on, you spend time with the One who knows. You talk to Him, you reaffirm your love for Him, your commitment to Him, regardless of whether or not you get the full answer.... If He doesn’t tell us the answer to the question we're asking, then we know that either it's not for us to know or it's not time for us to know it."
And that would help allow joy to come in, I am thinking
"When Jesus was on earth He experienced every kind of struggle that we do. He was physically and verbally abused, abandoned by friends & family, ridiculed..."
"We can leave the hurt or the person who hurt us in God’s hands..."
"We will not know God intimately unless we know His Word.....
the purpose of fasting isn't so much going without food as it is to have more time to spend with God
Everything turns inward in depression Like a boomerang that always returns, no matter how hard you try, you can’t get away from yourself. Pain is like that.
But there are choices.
Your decision is between calling out to the Lord or not.
When we engage in self-pity we are in a position of pride & mistrust.....
we say through our self-pity, ‘I am too good for this’, or, ‘I don’t deserve this’. It is mistrust in that we are not trusting in the providence of God....
Every time I am tempted to entertain the old feelings of self-pity I remind myself, & God, that I do not own that situation any more. I have given it to God & I must refuse to take it back.
Self pity= Joy snatcher
It's not our place to be concerned whether someone else has a better pilgrimage than we do. Our pilgrimage is unique & the task for us is to accept what happens, as our journey is designed to make us more like our Savior. So whether the road is rough or smooth we work at being content & faithful to follow God wherever He leads. If you are a Christian you will suffer.....
the righteous on his worst day is far better off than the unrighteous on his best day...
Be assured that God will be your counselor & friend; He will guide you; He will direct all your ways.
God himself will receive you to glory—you! Wandering, erring, straying, yet he will bring you safe at last to glory! This is your portion; live on it this day, & if perplexities should surround you, go in the strength of this text straight to the throne.
His 2nd coming assures us that we will live & reign with Him forever. Such a hope keeps this life from becoming “tedious & tasteless”—regardless of the seasons or situations.
The ultimate source of inner joy is God Himself
We are pilgrims, living on God’s promises, and His promises never fail.
The jealous God will not permit the righteous to be alienated from Him.
Sin another joy stealer
The greater our nearness to God, the less we are affected by the attractions of sin.
Oh ha I just read an answer to something I didn't see and you asked why did I stay in a room alone when at my aunt's. Well, my mom would never let me cook with her....she did not want the mess and clean up from a young child.....she let me dust at home, and later I ironed but she never once, let me or tried to teach me to cook. Once she did say once when I was older, that she would rather I read, and prepare for a job like being a teacher....than learning to cook....I could always do that later.
Ok I am on page 2 so I am going to do a few things....I am not sure if I will get back here later on today or not....
I have a feeling that I will need several more days or longer to finish all your notes. I am about 3/5 thru the first page.
However, today is Hossanah's birthday and father's day. Then we have the grandchildren home and we may have to split being with Devon about 4 1/2 hours ea. plus Tue we will have to start cleaning the apt. for landlord Brent ( and these guests 2 adults, 2 children, and a dog....almost certainly means all beds will need tending, crumbs and dog hair everywhere, and all towels used....
So tho I will be able to spend a couple hours each day, I still don't think, I will get thru all the pages before the end of the week......
Oh and the fact, that our internet is still on the blink a lot.....we are waiting for the server to put in a new modem....so we never know when we may be able to get on , nor for how long....
and I sometimes feel better, but then sometimes, I am in pain and very very tired.
But I am truly enjoying going over the notes.....some of it is like brand new, I either don't remember very well or it is just making a much stronger impact.
I also have been listening to a lot of gospel praise and worship music which really does life my soul and spirit!!! a LOT!!!!
So now I will begin posting some of your notes I am re-reading that are helpful to me ( well they all are LOL but you know what I mean.
"it may take time for it to go away completely and for you to accept the changes the Lord has made within you, so that the old feeling is replaced with a new good one. It depends on you and the Lord really, and how much time you spend in His Word daily."
"This is the day the Lord has made and I will rejoice and be glad in it"
I pray for people I see on the street, or in the store, just whoever the Lord points out to me. I pray for the people I hear about on the news....all the regular members of FH....neighbors, my own family, the body of Christ in general."
"It's hard for us to truly understand godly beauty when all we've been exposed to is earthly or worldly beauty. Plus, just as importantly, remember what the Lord tells us that we will find exactly what we are searching for. if we are searching to find ugliness, then that's what we'll find. If we are searching for beauty, then that's what we'll find....grandma's equal love and love is beautiful... God calls grey hair a crown...
Worldly beauty is one of the idols that many Americans have...poisonous lies... beautiful is someone without makeup who you can see is innocent of those lies, someone who, like a child, accepts themselves the way the Lord made them and simply enjoys the life they've been given.
Spiritual food can seem unsatisfying at first, but have you ever had someone say to you, “I love you”? Wouldn’t you gladly pass on a buffet in order to hear such words?
a fed spirit is satisfied for this life and the life to come.
It’s true I’m feeling bad. It’s only unpleasant, however; it’s not doomsville. 2. It’s not doomsville because I’m not letting it be. I'll allow some good healthy pain, but I won’t allow anguish, misery, woe, & disaster. 3. I’m in control here. God has created me as an emotional being, so I can expect to have emotions. But God has also given me the fruit of the Spirit: self-control. So I'll control my feelings & they can’t control me. 4. I am angry. I can, however, handle anger in a biblical, healthy manner. I don't lie to myself about this emotion & I don't try to squelch it or hold it in. I'm also not a person of temper tantrums. I choose self-control.
Two misbeliefs undergird this kind of despair:
1. God is not the source of life. Man is. When we're despondent over loss, we're telling ourselves that the person or thing we lost is crucial to our lives & happiness. The untruth lies in the fact that nothing & nobody but God is crucial to anyone.
2. Since I lost X, my world has nothing of any significance in it.
A person can lose his/her health, reputation, vision, hearing, legs, hands, even family members, money, homes, physical attractiveness, life goals & plans & yet recover & go on living a wonderfully rewarding & meaningful life. When you suffer a loss, you're going to feel the sting; but the key to recovery is not to repeat that someone or something is of such importance that you cannot go on after losing it. You can go on. You are important. Part of the self-talk of nearly all depressives includes the statement, “The future is hopeless.
“Even though I feel I have no hope, my recovery is assured. Thank God, these feelings of depression won’t last.”
Freedom from lies we tell ourselves
even when we're asleep - unaware of what's really going on - God takes tender, loving care of us, always giving abundantly...protecting her and considers her precious.
Today I am going to start reading your notes from the beginning of this thread.
About our weird internet problem.....finally ( because the landlord and his family came last night, and everyone but us told them about intermittent or very little internet, and they themselves could not get online.....he then called the server.)
The server tried to fix the problem from the office to no avail and told him they would have to order a new modem and install it, in order to fix the problem....I think they will bring it out once they get it, but don't know how long that will take.
So, I may just start putting up some notes in a post
which I will continue to add to as an edit
go back and organize it
because I never know when or how long we will be on......it seems like we can still be on, an hour or two and then off for 4 or more hours and on again for an hour....but not always even that much.
So that is why I am going to be posting in such a strange way
if you happen to come and just see some random sentences or partial sentences even....I just want to get some of your ideas up and will organize later....as long as I can even continue to get on for some time anyway.
Today I will do Psalms 145-150 and then start working on re-reading your notes.
In order to have joy I need to lock in my mind v.1 to praise my Savior with my heart, spirit, mind....forever and ever.
v.8 another reason to feel joyful is that Jesus has been compassionate and loving to me. v. 13 and trustworthy and faithful, providing for my needs all of my life.
v. 19 a cause for joy is He heard my cry and saved me.
I can praise the Lord God all my life as long as I live and sing praises ( and He inhabits the praises of His people) 6. Joy for creating everything and v.7 for setting me free and v.8 giving me 'sight' and v.9 sustained me when I was fatherless and v.10 He reigns.....forever!!!
v.3 Joy because He healed my broken heart v.5 because He is all knowing ( I don't want to be all knowing myself, it is more fun and joyful to know, that my God, can forever surprise me, and give more more and more knowledge and wisdom, forever and ever.
v.10 I don't have to be 'strong' either, for Him to love me, His love for me is unfailing ( and just like He is all knowing, it is a joyful truth that He is all powerful! He can over come anything, but He can also give me strength for eternity.
v.18 and His word is powerful!
v. 14 In praising Him, I join with a multitude of brother and sister believers, and all He has created, which brings me close to his heart.
v.4 It is a joy to know that the Lord delights in me!
I can praise Him in many different ways, words, song, dance etc.
I have not yet re-read your notes but I did go back and re-read Psalms 113-118 and 145-150
And I took some notes.
Before I forget tho, I wanted to say, one thing that really helped was when you wrote, that the Lord is excited to see me each morning.
So I am still not sure I understand 100 percent, but I will write what I have so far, and if I need to go back over them and expand, I will do so.
Psalm 113 v. 2 speaks of praising the Lord for now and forever more..... and I realized since my joy is not where I think it ought to be (sort of more minimal and iffy....kind of like our computer network/server whatever...on again off again),
means I do not spend enough time with the Lord, and/or praising him.
Psalm 114 V,2 I am indwelled by God the Holy Spirit but me as a church, is often more empty church due to my spending only a small amount of real quality time with the Lord....and thus a small amount of joy.....it is certainly more than it was when I first joined FH of course and I have more peace, and thankfulness....but since I am working mostly on the joy factor.....
v. 1 I need to focus more on God's love and faithfulness to me. I also need to once again, spend less time with the world and it's false idols ( less news etc. which is mostly downers and not joy bringing.....yes it points to how close we are getting to the end.....but in a way, that goes without saying, I KNOW every day is a day closer, and there is no question the world is going down the drain. I also need to think on how He is my help and will bless me, plus being more thankful for his love, now, and forevermore.
v.1 I can have joy because God heard my cry for mercy, and I can call on Him for as long as I live.
v.3,5 I can rejoice that whenever I have been ( or will be) overcome by trouble, sorrow or in great need, the Lord is compassionate, and has ( and will) deliver me......esp. my soul from the 2nd death.
v.16 Jesus has freed me from my chains and I could be joyful and give a sacrifice of praise and thanksgiving.
Joy and peace because His love towards me is great and His faithfulness endures forever ( forever is a joy filled word to me).
v.1 is like Ps. 117 Joy = the fact that God's love for me endures forever!
v.5 Jesus has set me free of fear-what can man do to me? ( I actually am free from fear waaaaaaay more than I ever was, but I still do have moments when fear tries to overcome me, because of how crazy people in the world are becoming. But the Lord has let me live in this small coastal village, where we have been very insulated from the madness of big cities and I am so grateful. v. 14 reminds me I can be joyful because I do not need to be strong in myself, but the Lord God is my strength. v. 17 I will not die ( well my body yes, but even then I will get a new body....that is a joyful thought!!!) v.24 kind of goes along as an antidote to my morning depression because it says: this is the day the Lord has made....rejoice ( Joy) and be glad in it.
Hummmmm I forgot to write what Ps I was looking at LOL Opps!
I wrote I can praise His greatness, majesty, goodness, compassion, love, and look forward to His kingdom with joy also His faithful promises to me, can bring joy. v. 14 He will uphold me when I fall v. 18 He is near when I call which also is a reason to be joy filled ( He is not far away).
I think I will take a short break and do 145-150 later.
It's 3:00 and I only just got on the net and was able to read what I was supposed to have done......I had a feeling, I didn't understand, and I was right about that anyway LOL
So I will first write down ( in case the net or our server goes down again, this has been going on for over a week or more) the praise psalms you suggested and ask the Lord about the mornings, and see what He shows me from them. Another day, (tomorrow....if I can get online) I will read your notes. I will post either tonight or tomorrow on the psalms....but it seems like our server or whatever is going on, almost always goes down at night....but today it was all morning and 1/2 of the afternoon.
Also I have strangely been very tired the last couple of days. I was hoping as summer very slowly creeps in, I might find more energy, but so far, the last couple of days, it's not been happening. I can hardly stay awake.
However, when the net is up I listen to praise and worship songs for an hour or so, and I have been peaceful and very joy filled.
Last Edit: Jun 14, 2017 17:14:54 GMT -5 by fearnot
First I wanted to let you know, I always... ( well I think once or twice, I somehow missed seeing a post by you)
read your posts.... unless, I somehow managed once or twice to miss seeing them, but it was not on purpose.
I think waaaaay back a few years, when Eva was with us, and we were studying (???) something, several times, I read a good portion of a very long post, but then, sort of skimmed over the rest, because, I was actually feeling worse than now...... in part because I was taking some weird meds.
But for the last few years, I have made every effort to read in entirety your posts, because they are so helpful, interesting, and don't seem so long anymore... maybe they are not? LOL
Anyway, I do reflect on parts of each post, but usually it's one, two, or three things that really stand out to me. That seems to be all I can digest.
And I think, on a different day, ( like reading scripture) something else might stand out? But since we have to move on, I don't often go back and re-read, so I can't test my theory, but I am pretty sure it would be true.
So many times when Leonard reads scripture (after we pray and before we eat dinner), we will both say, almost at the same time......
Wow, I don't remember -------- ( fill in the blank)!!!
He has been reading about Samson the last few nights.... and one simple little silly thing ( there have been several tho) was... we knew Samson had been a judge in Israel, but both of us forgot it was for 20 years!
We both thought it was shorter than that? I have no idea why....
but tho we both have read about Samson ( and I have read it several times and maybe Leonard has also)
that little, almost unimportant fact, just didn't stand out enough for me to remember it....
but this last time, I was like 20 years???!!! Really, that long...huh?
Kind of silly, I know, but scripture is never 'all done'....
like... now I know everything...
and I think, it will never be all done! Besides Jesus is the Word, so He will never be done!!
But I do believe I could in fact, think even more on your posts than I do!
Well, I will maybe go back and re-read the psalms you suggested and will post on the first one today...until I better understand what I am to do.....
I am used to reading a chapter or a psalm etc. and posting on it....I
am not sure if you were saying as I talk to the Lord about His gift of joy and reflect on it...if I am to read all the psalms again you suggested and post on all of them today ( well tomorrow, since I am doing just one today).
Joy is still a little elusive,but in general, I mostly feel more peaceful, more trusting, and less worrying.
Oh, I called the imaging dept because they have now sent me two more letters, reminding me to come in for more breast images.......
and I called and told the appointment desk, I did not want to do that.....so she said: OK.
For a brief second or two, I felt a little worry....
I am so used to doing whatever the doctors say.....
but then, as I looked to Jesus, the worry left.
This is a looong post, but one last thing. I was telling our daughter about a FB post our grandchildren's dad posted the other day.
Then Hossanah said: yeah, I was about to say something negative to Devon ( our grandson) about Damien ( the dad) but then I stopped myself and said, I really shouldn't be being negative about your dad, to you Devon.
And then I agreed with her ( in part) but I also said to her, you can in love, ( and remembering we all are sinners) be honest with your children about their dad,
especially if their safety is concerned, because he is in a very unstable time.
( He called our grand daughter and had her in tears as he claimed he was suicidal......
Hossanah talked to him at that point, and said, he really needed to talk to someone else, but not his children about how he might kill himself!!!!
Anyway to make a long story short, Hossanah felt much better that I said that.... and she said, yes, I can tell them ,but not in an angry way, but in a loving, factual way..... Yes, I can do that.
I was only able to counsel her, because you had already told me that ....a week or two ago, when I asked for your advise and counsel.
so once again thank you very much!!!!
Last Edit: Jun 13, 2017 14:16:26 GMT -5 by fearnot
Cheryl, that was a funny story!!! My adopted mom was like you, she was not a cat lover!!! but don't you know, that whenever she would go to her friends homes to play bridge, her lady's friend cat would always pester her.
Wow tho that is terrible about your scar from a cat!
I actually love all animals and the only bad thing that happened to me, was when I went to visit a friend about 25 years ago their crazy mad Dachshund bite me as I stood talking to her at the door. It wasn't just me the dog bite, it had bitten both her and her husband ( and maybe other folks).
I had to go get stitches, but we did not even ask them to pay for the hospital bill......but I was prepared every time I visited from then on, not to get bitten ( when the dog bite me, I was standing with my hands at my side....so I never did that again at her home.
But I love dogs, they really should prob have put that dog down.
I just wish I had had my Airedale with me that day...that would have never happened.
My Airedale, in 13 years never ever showed any aggression to man or beast.....except one time
even when a pit bull attacked Shama my Airedale she did not retaliate at all.
But once we were at a dog park, and all the owners were sitting on top of the tables with their little dogs, and those with bigger dogs like mine were sitting on the seats.
I had Shama on a sit-stay command until we found out what was going on?
Then a very big dog came running up to us....and went for Shama's neck.....foolishly without thinking, I reach for Shama's collar to pull her out of harms way ( knowing she would not fight, because she knew I wouldn't allow it).....but this was more serious than even when the pit bull attacked her because this dog was going for her throat.
However, an Airedale has the potential to be a formidable opponent if every pushed......
Well the attacking dog saw my hand and changed course, from Shama's throat to my hand.....no one ever even sas Shama move.....she was that fast!
the dog could attack her and she would not fight ever, but not her alpha!!! She would defend me to the death if ever necessary and think nothing of it.
she bite that dog on its mouth...the mouth that was going to bite my hand!
The owner came running up and saw blood and said: "Oh did my dog bite your dog?" I said: " No, my dog bite yours"
She then took her dog home, and everyone in the park thank us and cheered for Shama.....the dog had terrorized every dog in the park and no one dared move....
Cheryl: I can understand how you felt about the deranged cat....cats have very different personalities, as do dogs....most are very sweet animals, but there are in fact, mean ones, ( most of the time due to human abuse, but not always).
some humans breed dogs, on purpose,mating the most agressive dogs to each other over and over, to be mean ( to guard their drug fields etc. they are man aggressive and that is sad).
But Smokie, is a very very sweet animal. I am pretty sure it was not because of his temperament, but the fact he was in the neighbor's yard.
However, if Smokie's owner didn't deal with it, there are many other ways of deterring a cat, just one example, is spraying it with water from the hose every time it set foot on her yard....most cats hate that. A lot would rather not continue to get soaked and would go elsewhere.
V. 1 is as you pointed out, the importance of praising Him with others ( i.e. church)
And for all His endless greatness and power.
Using musical instruments of various kinds.
And even with dance....one thing I found interesting in your info was when people dance for the Lord, the dancer is not the focus, ( like in ballet for example when the whole focus is on the prima ballerina) it is instead on God.
You will probably think I am a nut but I often quote v. 6 to pets I have had in the past, and to many wild or semi wild animals and birds I come in contact with.
v. 6 "Let everything that has breath praise the Lord".
Welcome to Fresh-Hope! “You too, be patient and stand firm, because the Lord’s coming is near.” (James 5:8)
bystillwaters: Hope all are well... :)
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