Prayer Request for my son Anthony Feb 3, 2016 13:58:33 GMT -5
Post by donnam1067 on Feb 3, 2016 13:58:33 GMT -5
My son Anthony has struggled with chronic drug addiction for the past 12 years. My husband and I have given him chance after chance over the years to come stay with us so for him to get straight..it never works out. Anthony always promises he will do what is right and then he immediately gets comfortable and goes back to his old ways. Anthony did get saved when he was younger and he had rededicated his life again back to Jesus last Feb. Anthony has been addicted to heavy drugs since he turned 18 years old and it is 10 years later...he has progressed even worse over the years. My husband and I would enable him over the years by helping him financially and letting him stay with us on and off, we would always be hopeful and think he would change this time...but he would slowly go back to his old ways again. Anthony just got out of jail/prison (Low level prison) a month ago and the Lord gave me 3 confirmations not to let him come stay with us when he got out. It has been extra hard because when he was in the rehabilitation program in jail part he was doing so well. The Lord had sent to him strong Christians that helped him in his walk by fellowship with him and knew what he was going through because they were ex drug addicts too. I saw a real progress in his life. Anthony is the type of person that always looks to us (his parents) as his "savior" in times of trouble and not to God. Well like I wrote earlier God had confirmed with me 3 times on not to let him come and stay with us this time when he got out. I anguished about this, a lot of my church brothers/sisters are like why aren't you letting him stay with you? So I started to question if what the Lord had confirmed with me was just all in my head? So when Anthony got out I picked him up from the bus station and brought him home to get his stuff and to ask him if he wanted to go to church with us that day. That day I kept anguishing over the fact that most people from church thought I was doing the wrong thing to not let him stay with us this time, and maybe I was doing the wrong thing. So I was questioning and questioning if those confirmations were from God because why else are most of the Christians at my church were more for me to let him come home after he got out. So my husband said to me, we will let him stay this tonight only and tomorrow he will have to go. We told Anthony and so he was happy. We stressed to him though it was just for that one night and that was it. He knew by staying with us he would have to abide to our house rules, For me and my house we will serve the Lord. No watching anything on tv that we don't condone, etc.. He went to church with us and then he went to the store after church with us. When we got home he started to act like he was settling back in his old behavior. So we told him this is just for tonight and you need to seek the Lord with all your heart to trust Him that He will help you, not us, but He will help you. Unfortunately later that night, he found some pot in his bag and smoked it. Disrespected us by smoking pot and he manipulated his way into renting a movie that we did not condone for him to watch in our house. The next day we told him to go on his way and to really stop relying on himself, to surrender his life up to the Lord for everything. Since he left our house he has been not trusting the Lord completely and went back to panhandling, which he tells me he can't stand doing but doesn't want to be out on the streets homeless. We live in South Florida, doesn't get too cold here and when it does there are shelters. I just know in my heart that if he truly surrendered his heart, his situation to trust Jesus...God would have a door open for him. My son's faith is back and forth, he puts his situation into God's hands then takes it back...you know what I'm talking about, we've all gone through this as Christians at one point or another with something God is helping us with. Mine was smoking, now it's food. Anyway if you can all please keep Anthony in prayer, he really needs it now more than he has ever has before. He called me up today saying that he gave it up to God today and a little while later he took it back. Please say a prayer for strength for me and my husband too, this is so hard on us. My close friend that I had thought she was with me and understood on why we can't let Anthony back home, now as of yesterday said to me, why won't you let him back in. I'm at my wits end! Please pray, I appreciate it so much. Thank you so much and God Bless.
Love your sister in Christ,
Love your sister in Christ,